Pffft

Damn. I blew it. Why couldn't I just stay away? And now look at what has happened. *sigh*

Well Well

I wasn't so happy last time. I felt sad.

So now I wanted to test myself. I tried to see if I'll be okay without you. I wanted to shut you out of my life for fear that I might just hurt you. I realized that I have become addicted to you, too attached to you. I wanted to be away for a while, to give you time to miss me...

Anger? Resentment? Call it whatever you want.

Sigh

*sigh* why do i always have to be like this? i thought i have gotten over my issues-- of being too selfish, too self-pitiful, too possessive. and yet chilling reminders of what i have been continue to haunt me till now. perhaps i never really got to shake that layer of dust off of me after all.

*sigh* i enjoy your company. i treasure you. you're important to me. is this reciprocated? is this even right? are you even listening?

*sigh* it's cold. i'm all alone. where are you?

From Now On

Ahhhh at long last! A place to rant. To ramble. To look deep into myself. And to say things without the fear of being judged or rejected or disturbed. A place where I can be who I really am.

I'm calling it Introspection. After all, introspection is like the activity described by Plato when he asked, "...why should we not calmly and patiently review our own thoughts, and thoroughly examine and see what these appearances in us really are?" (Wikipedia)

Hmmmm... exactly what I'd want to do myself! *wink*